On what grinds my gears.

I've always wanted to do this post. After watching that video and reading "Roy's" blog. But I guess I wouldn't after all. Fear "Roy" might think I'm out to rip him off, what's next? My version of Matrix? It's really funny how I met Roy, that's not even his real name. He's "almost" like my Tyler Durden. "Almost" psyched me up to get a tatoo, "almost" got a ear hole, "almost" picked up smoking, "almost" got be addicted to drinking. "almost" made me the ultimate bad-boy. What you gonna do when we come for you?

Everyone needs a lil' Roy in you. Don't you think? He's not bad influence, but he challenges you. Challenges you to do the unexpected, to throw a screwball, to sneak food into cinemas, to eat with a knife on your left. To stand up for what is wrong, or right for that matter. To love what you hate, to be what you hate. I am grateful for Roy, he's been there for some of my "firsts", thankfully not all. Hope this doesn't sound too gay.

To love what you hate, to be what you hate. Doesn't that sound like a rebellious teenager? That phrase would make as much sense to you as Force 188. Nothing. But hear me out.

Not too long ago, Roy and me became good friends. He told me stuff, I told him stuff. There's thing he told me about this other guy, who's being a real jerk to this other girl. And Roy freakin' hates him. And we're all talking, discussing how we should torture people like that. Then Roy became someone he hated. Then I remember how Roy would disapprove of his buddy's smoking habits. Suddenly he's smoking, literally.
Now I personally hate smoking too. I detest smokers. But now I'm hanging around them, breathing in second hand smoke. Does that count? I hate being told what to do, especially by my parents. But when I work, I tell people what to do the entire time. I use to hate cursing, cusses, my relationship ended because she cussed too much. Now I curse all the time! Not in front of family though, but around my friends, I think I do it a little too much.

Am I becoming something I hate? Becoming hypocritical? I hate how my parents talk to their parents, and recently I argued back at them. I hate how my parents talk to us. Now, would I become something like them in the future? All these mambo jumbo is not coincidence I don't think.

So if this is true. If you'll love what you hate, and be what what you hate, shouldn't you hate the "right" things? So eventually you'll just fall in love with it?

Honestly, what I just wrote is all bulls**t. I don't understood what I just wrote. Cos I know, about a year down the road when i read back all my archive posts, I would just laugh at myself for being such a rebellious prick. Its like I can see the future.

After 10 years

The little boy stands at the edge of the pool. His right trailing leg is shaking with full of anxiety. He looks up and see the lovely little girl in the middle of the pool. She is playing with her other girl friends, maybe she's been noticing him, maybe not.

"Do it, Do it" the chants around the boy gets louder. It resounds and reverberates through the walls of his ears. Suddenly the world caves in. He looks around. He sees his friends behind him cheering him on. Some had the intent in their eyes to just push him into the water. He looks over into the pool, is she looking this way, he asks himself.

He rocked back and forth. Left foot, right foot. He swings his arms back, as far as he could. And catapult himself high into the air. The skinny, tiny frame of his goes airborne.

Just before his eminent entry into the water. He had to do it. Maybe it was a truth-or-dare game. Maybe it was real. Maybe he's just so spontaneous. Or maybe he's just stupid. But he had to do it. As he is flying through the chlorine filled air, he reached the peak of his jump, and yelled "I love you, mblupblurppp" The little boy drank a mouthful of chlorine juice.

He stood up, coughing trying to gain his composure and breath. He hears laughter, giggles. Little boy looks behind and his guy friends are all laughing hysterically. Something Johnny Knoxville would do if he saw Bam got squashed in the nuts. YEs, he has finally did it. Little boy thrusts his pokky-thin arms in the air with fist clenched in victory. He joins them with a little chuckle.
He notices the soft giggling just ahead of him. It was the girls. Immediately little boy kept his arms and dived underwater. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. Embarrassed, he wanted to stay under for the rest of the day.

What have I done says the little boy. Now she's never talking to me. What if her parents found out? and her dad comes looking for me?

He stayed under for what seemed forever. After ten years, the not-so-little boy can look back and laugh at what he's done. What's even better, after ten years, THEY laughed together.

Love?¿

But don't you worry. I will stand up against the bullets like Neo, and bite them all with my teeth. We of this creed have created an immunity against live rounds, blanks, empty catridges, rejections or any other form of pyrotechnics.

Love is not possesion. Like is a verb.
I can't tell one from the other. Does love make you do crazy stuff? Make you go halfway across the island just to catch a glimpse of you? Make you stay up at 2 in the morning Google-ing your name just to see what comes up? Make you reach in deep into your pocket when you feel your phone vibrating but actually its just your jeans, hoping it was you who called?

So when you say "I love you" or "I like you", whats the diff?
Is one higher than the other? or deeper? Who puts these words in context/ relativity? This "love" is it the same as what a parent has for a child or when you see chocolate and you say "I'd love to try that some day".

If I were a player, this would be my motto. " Spend 24hours with me and I'll make you fall in love with me."

Can someone please tell me "what's love..*Tina Turner voice*"

Happy Birthday Michelle

Happy Birthday Michelle.

Anyways, it was fun, I knew what I was going into. I knew her birthday was coming along. I had to do something, instead of waiting for things to happen, I might as well do it. We met at Esplanade and ate outdoors. Hella fun, no thanks to the haze. We ordered so much food. Then we walked along the riverwalk. A small group of us just sat and prepared the lanterns and the cake, we were behind the "main" group ahead. Then I called my brother telling him one of our friends left his handphone at the food centre so we asked them to back-track. While they came back, we shouted for them and sang birthday song to her. Aww how sweet.
Spent the whole night playing with lanterns and sparklers. Police came and stood around us. I have no idea why, but soon we were oblivion to their presence. They were probably there to slap us with a $1000 fine if we left any of those used sticks around.

Yeah its all fun. What would you do for an answer? My answer?
Keep your helmet on, we'll be heading into the warzone, where gossips and slanders flying, whizzin pass you.

Photos

More photos

Party..

Ken, Kun, Michelle and Shen playing with sparklers and lanterns.
(Look at Michelle's "priceless" face as her's goes out)
Michelle and Shen outside Anderson's Ice-cream

Nightlife

Get a taste of the highlife. I was on the guest list to one of Singapore's premium clubs in town last Wed. How? All I can say is I know people who knows people. Just kidding. I have a friend who works there and she invited me in for a charity event for MILK (Mainly I Love Kids). When all proceeds go to a charity that gives us a reason/excuse to drink. Kids, if you're reading this, don't try this (drinking) at home.

Okay, so all I had was a bottle of Corona, and sips of Asashi and Hoegaarden. It was like a celeb-gala event. Red carpet, balloons, Porsches, big bouncers, photographers, you name it they've got it. Celebs like Debbie Wong was supposed to be there, but I left before I could even catch a glance of her. So big was the event it was in singapore's guide to local nightlife's website. nightlife.sg
Oh yeah and my photo's in there.

While we're at the topic of drinking, I had this dream of a particular someone. In this dream, we were hanging out then she sneaked something out of her bag. Lo and Behold, its a bottle of vodka or something transparent, could even be paint thinner for all I know. So we went to this one place, like a cinema/concert hall. Then she started drinking it, then she held my hand then she confessed her love for me.
This scares me a little. If dreams are true of mean something at least. Does that dream say for a girl to like me she has to be drunk? or out of her mind? Yikes

new dude

Ah hah. New stuff. Not as if anyone reads it but hey i'll try updating some for you faithful.

remember those days when my hair was long? the days in azrizona? i miss you all.

Kris and I

Buddy, Robin

Lander, I and Joshua

Lander & I

Finale 

At table no.16 

Group shot! 

Kris and I 

Section One with our dates. 

Comms Ball

Comms Ball. Probably the highlight of OCC. Good food, Great entertainment. What more can you ask for? The photos ain't seem to be loading right. But it was truly memorable.

Seeing friends/brothers together again after just one week, really hits the spot. That night truly was the night of nights. "From this day to the ending of the world we in it shall be remembered. We lucky few, we band of brothers. For he who today sheds his blood with me shall be my brother."

And the wonder of it all is that you just don't realize.....
In the end, I wouldn't have wanted anyone else to go. Thanks.

YES SIR!

AHh. This picture says it all.
Confucius say, sex is like the army, the closer you are to discharge, the better you feel.
Another year in the army then I'm done.

Today's Funnies

"Whenever I watch TV and I see those poor
starving kids all over the world, I can't help but
cry. I mean I would love to be skinny like that, but
not with all those flies and death and stuff." -
Mariah Carey, Pop Singer

"I say no to drugs, but they don't listen." - Marilyn
Manson, Singer

"I wish men had bo0bs because I like the feel of
them. It's so funny - when I record I sing with a
hand over each of them, maybe it's a comfort
thing." - Baby Spice of the Spice Girls

"I didn't realize I was in a Buddhist temple." - Al
Gore, former U.S. Vice President when asked
about his illegal fundraising activities that took
place in a Buddhist temple.

"We are unable to announce the weather. We
depend on weather reports from the airport, which
is closed, due to weather. Whether we will be able
to give you a weather report tomorrow will depend
on the weather." - Arab News report

"Politics gives guys so much power that they tend
to behave badly around women. And I hope I
never get into that." - Bill Clinton, former U.S.
president

"I get to go to lots of overseas places, like
Canada." - Britney Spears, Pop Singer

"Where the hell is Australia anyway?" - Britney
Spears, Pop Singer

"Please do not feed the animals. If you have any
suitable food, give it to the guard on duty." -
Budapest Zoo sign

"My lord, we find the man who stole the mare not
guilty." - Welsh Jury Verdict

"I've never had major knee surgery on any other
part of my body." - Winston Bennett, University of
Kentucky basketball forward.

"I can't really remember the names of the clubs
that we went to." - Shaquille O'Neal, basketball
player, on whether he had visited the Parthenon
during his visit to Greece

"Ladies are requested not to have children at the
bar." - Sign in a Norwegian cocktail lounge

"Smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost a very
important part of your life." - Brooke Shields,
during an interview to become spokesperson for a
federal anti-smoking campaign.

"I cannot tell you how grateful I am -- I am filled
with humidity." - Gib Lewis, speaker of the Texas
House

"I owe a lot to my parents, especially my mother
and father." - Greg Norman, Golfer

"Teeth extracted by the latest methodists." - Hong
Kong dental advertisement

"Traditionally, most of Australia's imports come
from overseas." - Former Australian cabinet
minister Keppel Enderbery

"Man thought hurt, but slightly dead." - Providence
Journal Headline

"Better make it six, I can't eat eight." - Dan
Osinski, Baseball pitcher, when a waitress asked
if he wanted his pizza cut into six or eight slices

"Chemistry is a class you take in high school or
college, where you figure out two plus two is 10,
or something." - Dennis Rodman, NBA
Basketball player, on Chicago Bull's team
chemistry being overrated

"The doctors X-rayed my head and found
nothing." - Dizzy Dean explaining how he felt after
being hit on the head by a ball in the 1934 World
Series.

"Hi I'm Dean White, Dick, of the college." -
Richard (Dick) White, Duke University academic
Dean introducing himself at a faculty dinner.

"If history repeats itself, I should think we can
expect the same thing again." - Terry Venables

Lawyer: "Sir, what is your IQ?" Defendant: "Well, I
can see pretty well, I think." - Testimony from
court records

"He treats us like men. He lets us wear earrings." -
Torrin Polk, University of Houston receiver, on his
coach, John Jenkins

"Did people build this, or did Indians?" - Tourist
question at Mesa Verde National Park

"You mean they've scheduled Yom Kippur
opposite Charlie's Angels?" - Fred Silverman, TV
programmer, when told that Yom Kippur would
fall on a Wednesday.

New Year Resolution

My new year resolution:
Put God First
Let Him take all of me.